Struggles

Suicide
I’ve been writing about weddings and this brings to mind my sis’s funeral she complete suicide a number of years ago, she used a gun a 22 to the temple. That was a devastating time, she had a rough year lost three jobs, and three relationships and could not get on with her life, she was about to graduate collage. I guess she could not get through the next part of her life. She was getting professional help not on meds. I’ve always wondered if that might have helped.

Processing anger and not repressing it, getting the stuff out of your life that holds you back is helpful. I made a list of 100 things of things to do when I was angry that helped. Exercise helps, walking is great therapy, and gardening has been so good to help me sort out all the questions and process this.

Last week I was doing some journal prompts and thinking about when I was younger stirred this up. I remembered what a struggle grade school was for me on a number of fronts. I need to get some prompts of my favorite times when I was young.

Thinking back on school I struggled with dyslexia and that helped me to understand one of my lift goals to make learning fun.