Shredder Duty

Today is a cold wet and rainy one I had to turn on the heat. I did sort and get old checks through the shredder first thing this morning. I am feeling so productive yea!

I talked with my sis a CNA in a nursing home and asked her input for a friend dealing with hospace advice she said was to ask them about resources even if one is not on hospice yet. Different areas have different services. My experience was way diffeent that others I have talked to about it. So each situation is different. My experience with it was short 24 hours and it was at a facility not in home as others have had. I know of four others they each had a different experience with it. So I think each situation is different. So help is avalible but cv - 19 has changed some things or it did for me at least.

I think the counseling and other eperiences with loss of family memebers has given me some grief experience to help with this current season for me. One book called it experienced grief persons, some on to call if you need support. As I talk with the kids I can tell that they are still processing it. I had more time to get used to this season, and saw the daily struggles and know how it was effecting us.

In the audio book it suggested ten most common asked questions, that could help to google for some thing you are embarking on. Seek help from outside sources, I have a friend with some thing that is challenging her I have zero experience with so I had to say I do not know. I did a tiny bit of research but then realized this friend just needed a listening ear as she processed what was going on and things she was grappling with. End of life stuff for a family member. The next step the big one and getting beyond that.

Some times we need to plan and get a list for after the loss of a loved one, or after we retire. Where do I go from here, the list may or may not work out but at least it can be a spring board for the next thing. Getting our minds in to different head space than being stuck not knowing where to turn or what to do next.

Now I need to think about what else is going on for me. I am grateful for the small things today like the sound of rain drops. I laughed out loud at some thing silly today. I know my joy is returning that helps.

I was please to be a blessing to others as I share some of the things I am letting go of. Old CB stuff and a bag of rags some one said they could use that others did not want was gave me joy to share. That also freed up space to breathe or have something more useful in my life now.

I am SO excited about some new things in July. I have been listening to an autio book while I shred papers and that has helped. I feel more productive.

I have a new bullet journal to begin on the first I hoped to start it today but there are just enough pages for this month. So cool how life happens.

New flowers are blooming in the yard some sunflowers that came up on their own are now blooming, and some lilies that I planted. I can think about bulbs I want to get and plant for blooms next year.