Ups and Downs

I watched a video about grief. It talked about how the process of grief was more like a roller coaster than the steps of grief. It said that each person is different and journaling is suggested I do that. Hormones and holidays always seem to get me.

We had wind and that weirds me out when the trees are creaking. When I walked the dog she kept looking back at me it was like she wanted to check and see that I was still there after the gusts of winds.

I was SO glad I got the stuff done outside yesterday because it was not so pleasant in the wind that is for sure. Not so many folks were out walking in the blustery weather. Not uncommon for mid - April.

I felt a bit unraveled at several points in my weekend, I had to take a time out and regroup. Then got more mail that will require what I call "homework" some research not the fun kind. I knew it was coming. I am not opening that until later. As I remind myself to breathe. I sat down and did a few rows on my current knitting project. White dish cloths that stitch up into round motifs I need to figure out how connect in to a prayer shawl. I have made these for others it is my turn for one now.

I realized I need to drive the truck this week and have a bit of a list going for my next store run.

Gardening is my solace at least on the nice days. I enjoy music it seems to soothe or stir my soul, however love songs seem to send my into a tail spin so I change the channel when they come on. I try to remember my fun list and do some of those things, I need to make a list of the things to paint. Unfortunately today chocolate was one of them.

I keep looking at the tote of camping gear, might have to do a sleep over and back yard camping. Some neighbors down the street are doing a fire night in their back yard this evening. It is a lovely night but a bit cool for me to that.

After a bit more activity on Easter weekend it is a bit of a let down. Food all the food in the fridge and with just me here just one more thing to deal with. I now understand what folks mean when the talk about that. I am wondering if you can freeze boiled eggs nope google said they do not freeze well. A ham and egg salad sandwich sounds great but the hams were gone so that is not happening.

The word battle weary came to mind after a long battle folks just become weary it could be from an illness like cancer, cv - 19 , or what ever. So more self care is in order. I did a pedicure counting that. more on that in a different post.