Been Gone

It's been a while. I am processing. Trying to regroup. The world is in the midst of the cv-19 thing. I am just trying to get through one step at a time and one day at a time. There was an earth quake and rare tornado in the area. Things are really weird.

I am trying to remember my focus and review my purpose. The things I knew have changed. I have food in the house I did fill the freezer last fall, and restarted that again in Jan. this year so that is good. I have ensure and protein powder if food runs low. Plans have been changed.

The dog is good company. I do great if the weather is good. I do not do so well if the weather is not good.

Hubby passed from cancer this month so that has me reeling. It is good that hubby did not want a funeral. I talked with the kids about closure with a fuss and we are okay with that . Maybe when all this cv thing is over. Maybe we can think about a family meal or something.

I saw a thing that we should be journal - ing to help document these days and that helps relieve stress. Family has been checking on me.

I could draw to document what is going on in my sketch book. I was behind in my planner so got that current yesterday, things were a blurr that past week or so. Hospital, hospace house, trips to and from there.

So many things on my mind and decisions, things I could do and there is time to consider a bit of down time. I have been cleaning sorting and going through things here. It helps. I have a letter I wrote and am rethinking all of that. Paperwork to sort and make since of.

This is weird times. My bullet journal serves me well. As do my routines
I have been considering how to tweak them. For now they help.

I like what my sister said to write it down and make a list. We have been emailing and that is good. My faith is helping it is time to dig in, get to the prayer closet and get in touch with spiritual roots.

Talking with my sis we said that it is up to God if we make it through this. I had to be in the ICU where hubby was in one hosp. then he was life flighted to a diff. one. As I was going through that I lost contact ability to touch base with a message board group. Using diff. pc and tablet.

Now with the arrangements, getting the learning curve of things with this part of life for me. I must say that solitude of the essential social distancing is not all bad. It is a time of healing and I need to re group.

I seem to get the sense that God has me set apart for this season, and not just me. I had been fasting one meal a day for lent but the week before Psalm Sunday got off track with that. It did make the food last longer.

Some writers are  using this as a time to hunker down and get to some writing done. I have been making crochet puppets. I would like to garden I have seeds. But it is just not warm enough. I walked the dog early before the winds rain snow hit today that was good.

I have some invetory "homework" to do but got stuck and did not get to that today. Churches and Bible study , and knitting groups are not meeting.

I realized on my walk last night that I am doing so much better than I was a week ago!