Ready ... or not...

 Ready or not... grief can bite you in the butt at the most unexpected times. We had some snow last week and it was a trigger reminding me of the time I was in hospice house with hubby saying final goodbyes. It snowed three inches that day. So I was processing that. Feeling the feelings that come when you lose a loved one. 

My back had some twinges and I had to slow down and take care of me, I was stressing out about the cv-19 numbers and the threat of shut downs and roll backs that do happen. 

I was sewing up pillow cases, did some yarn crafting last month and some this week. 

Leaves were coming down so I have been going outside to take care of those raking them up and getting hem picked up and put in bags mild temps were great.

I walked the dog they other day and saw 7 deer on that walk, another time I saw a bunch of quail. It is good to be in nature. I got a happy planner recovery journal using my coupon. It was great and has helped me to see some things in a different light something I did need. 

I have been helping my son put on a handle on the patio door it broke today I got wounded and bleed a bit but a minor wound sort of surprised me. I had some wood here that he needed for a project he was very happy to get that because of the rise of lumber and I abandoned that project so it was a perfect solution. Now there is a wall of freed up space now in the shed. 

My daughter came by and I was able to gave her Christmas gift, and another item that she said she could use and was pleased with. The thermos and picnic pouch on a strap that she said she could use all day every day she said! I was a gift she gave her dad that was neat but he never used it. But she chose it with care and she loved it so I was glad to get it to her. I came across it the other day. 

My sleep patterns are still messed up after the time change so that has been frustrating. 

I am glad that I have dialed back holiday decorating. With the  cv-19 restrictions reinstated in our state had me angry. I realize most everyone I talk to have had loss this year.  

My granddaughter was pleased with her belated gift some cash, and embrodery floss for crafting the timing was great on that because she said she had learned how use it for a craft!      

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